Lost......

Stuck in my thoughts. I am so sad and heartbroken. I have had the worst two nights ever. I'm sitting here lost and confused. Broken. I'm stuck here with memories, bittersweet. For I know, there are no memories that can be made. You are...shit -- were...my big brother, my partner, a person I looked up to, and the person I often came to with big decisions & thoughts. You always were there to give me direction and clarity. We were mentally linked, same thoughts and views. I hope I was there for you as much as you were me. Our talks that often went for hours are no more. And it hurts. I don't know what to do now, because I've lost you. We've just lost you. Steve and I lost an amazing brother. The list of attributes to long to list. It rips my heart out cause you wanted to come up so badly to see grandma with the kids. I'm just lost right now without you. I miss my big brother. Our family lost a great man. Daphne lost a great husband. The kids lost an amazing father. The world lost a great, talented man.

R.I.P Winner Desmarattes